In the beginning... there was a blog

I start nursing school on Monday. This morning I woke at 4:30 feeling nervous and excited. I layed there thinking about the last year and a half of pre-requisites and all the unknowns ahead of me. I came down stairs to my computer and started to go through my internet routine: read the news, check email, facebook... when I remembered that I had started a blog last year that I never did anything with. After some work I located it and after staring at it blankly for some time I decided that I would try again, but this time I would focus on the next couple years of my life as I juggle family life and getting through nursing school. That's bound to be interesting, right...? I guess we'll see but at least it might give me some insight into my feelings and help manage stress. But for now I have two more days to prepare my home life before classes start for the semester. Most things are organized and I feel pretty secure with the the household. I go back and forth with my emotions feeling excited at one moment and then terrified the next. I know it is going to be stressful I just don't know in which direction it will come from first. My fears and concerns are many:

• underestimating the difficulty of the curriculum to come
• added stress to marriage and family
• the kids getting sick and trying to manage caring for them while managing school responsibilites
• the unbelievable expenses ie, tuition (around $5000), books (this semester $650.00),childcare, and all of the unforseens
• what if I don't like it? then what?

For now I need to focus on getting some work done. My goal today is to make and freeze a couple of dinners for nights when cooking is just not gonna happen.